by Cyril the Wolf

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While not all the music contained in this album was written in the last 6 months it all contributes toward an overarching unsettling feeling of Searching. Searching for what? That's up to you.

Originally I had a huge idea for a long concept album called change but I am BAD at gathering that stuff together so instead I decided to go for broke and just CREATE. Turns out my brain likes to meditate on things for a long time.

Special thanks to Forest Rain, Meelz, d.notive, Baschfire, Poni1Kenobi, Mbulsht, Tarby, Firenze and my beautiful fiancee. for making this album happen!. Couldn't have done it without your valuable friendship and support. Thanks to all you fans who enjoy my music, I still can't believe more than a dozen of you enjoy this stuff ;) I cannot thank you fans enough for your support.

This album will remain a buy it album but I will gradually start releasing it onto my YouTube and other outlets so you can stream it for free. I'm sorta poor at the moment and most of this money will be used to get me to my performances at Cons and maintaining my music equipment so I can continue making this noise for you all!


released February 17, 2013

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Cyril the Wolf Allentown, Pennsylvania

Connor Pelkey is a multi-instrumentalist & vocalist who enjoys creating a wide variety of music. Cyril the Wolf primarily focuses on Metal/Hard Rock with a Progressive slant. Lyrics range from thought-provoking to stories from worlds close to home, and far away. ... more

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Track Name: Where I Belong
Once in awhile, I look around
Take some time to think about
What I am, who I am, what I should do

Am I as happy as I've told you?
Am I who you thought you knew?
I feel trapped inside myself and can't climb out.

I need to find where I belong
Or at least find out what's wrong
Am I among my own kind
Or have I been living a lie?

It started when I saw the difference
Witnessing my brothers' preference
For violence and not kindness

Questioning beliefs I've held
For years and years I knew them well
Is it my "family" or my friends that know the real me?


Scattered light on a twilit horizon
Guides me through the shadows
I push on with a shattered spirit
I hear your voices calling me home
Your voices call me home

I know where I belong
I know what has been wrong
I've been among my own kind
It was my appearance that was a lie...
Track Name: Stages
Time has come again for another lesson
On my knees, hands together, tears fall in confession
Soft candle light blooms but still illuminates
A life building chronicle on which I will ruminate
Don't underestimate the power and the force
Brought forth by a voice, I can't determine the source
Of course the idea is now that this voice will somehow
Cause me to be the best so all will bow

Split upon the rack of our own desires
Turning on the spit of life's hot fire
Passing a hurdle just brings us to the next
The race isn't over until we've all met death

Door opens with a groan, echoing thoughts I was alone
This other person kneels, somber, past of sins to atone
Should I reach out, is this what friendship is about?
Why do I doubt, in other situations I would shout?
Devout muscles start to tense, I close my eyes in a defense
Another creak of the door, and now my hands are tightly clenched
The Waxing candle glow reveals that on my other side
A pink bow tied to a girl who's face has not dried...

We're all in stages...

Then the thought struck me that we're a holy trinity
All of life encapsulated on the knees of us three
The girl to my right, she represents the hope
The desire to do more, to climb higher on the rope
I'm in confusion, when I cannot climb higher
Should I be honest, humble or a cheat and a liar?
The person to my left has no more tears to be wept
Inside him are shreds of lies and secrets he should've kept...
Track Name: Tell Me So I Know
A tear in my eye
Falls from the sky
Is this my feeling
Or is it projected on me?

Tell me so I know

Am I just a shadow
My head hits the pillow
Do I feel it
Is it even real?

Tell me so I know

All the voices that surround me
Want converts to their philosophy
They speak for individuality
But only for their narrow realities

Nevermind I think I know
Track Name: White Knights
Stay true to yourself
It's what they always say
But there's more to honor
No black or white: it's gray
A selfless persona
Clinging so it can't get away
You live to serve those who've helped you
What if you're in the way

A kink in the armor
Of the white knights
Misguided children who are
Always in fights

Help those who don't need it
All for your selfish pride
Blind to the chaos you cause
Unwanted hero who won't stand aside

Sometimes you get beaten down and fried


Like a snow on a summer day
Blocking the warmth of the sun
Not a needle in the hay b

Always starting the fight...
Track Name: Internal Affairs
Wake up to another day
There's still some part that's gray
Old or new there's always some pain
Bringing the question "what's to gain"

Every time it seems there's peace... for awhile
We seem to seek the things that bring us down
in life
we fight...
We all want to win our wars

Caught in your shell
Your special personal hell
Inside the walls you've raised
Mirroring your own judging gaze

Can't you see?
You're your own enemy

Chorus x2

If you think that you are better
Then you should know that you have already lost the war
Track Name: Change
Sun-beating down upon my back
I walk barefoot on the sands
The sweat stings my eyes
And I'm blinded by the skies
Why am I here, what does this mean
Is this all just a terrible dream?
Or is my mind telling me
That this is what my life's become?

Should I be changing?

Get locked in to the system
Hypnotized by imperfection
Locked in a personal cage
But your soul is telling yo u to change.

They say expand upon the theme
But kill your thoughts to help the team
Take out problems on those you love
Then they leave and now you're alone
This happens more than we'd admit
No one comes to start changing it
Go insane, or decay with time
Ask "is this what my life's become?"


Get locked in to the system
Hypnotized by imperfection
Locked in a personal cage
But your soul is telling you to change.

(Don't) Just do what you're told...


Get locked in to the system
Hypnotized by imperfection
Locked in a personal cage
But your soul is telling you to change.